Kim Gordon: Girl in a Band – sur Courtney Love (et le narcissisme)


Foi en l'Esprit, Show Me Your Glittering Soul / jeudi, juin 1st, 2017

« Later on, Courtney Love would take up the role that the press was always fishing for – a punk princess, thrilling and dark, refusing to play by the rules. No one ever questions the disorder behind her tarantula L.A. glamour – sociopathy, narcissism – because it’s rock and roll, good entertainment! ‘Doll Parts’ – great lyrics! Having survived a childhood with Keller, I have a low tolerance for manipulative, egomaniacal behavior, and usually have to remind myself that the person might be mentally ill. That isn’t to say you don’t get sucked in, at least at first, which is how I came to produce Hole’s first album. »

God. Dear Lord.

« I thought, Ewww, at even the mention of Billy Corgan, whom nobody liked because he was such a crybaby, and Smashing Pumpkins took themselves way too seriously and were in no way punk rock. (It was a debate as old as time, who was ‘punk rock’ and who was ‘alternative.’) (…) That Courtney was attracted to Billy came as a surprise, as she was clearly so punk rock. But she was also ambitious and manipulative, as Don and I learned well during the recording process. Courtney could be honest and real, too – you just never knew which direction she would go – but knowing she could turn on me at any moment, I always kept her at arm’s length. « 

« Over the years, Courtney has said plenty of awful things in the press about me, and about Thurston, too, though he was practically the only person nice to Courtney after she punched Kathleen Hanna in the face on the first night of Lollapalooza in 1995. (…) Thurston wasn’t attracted to Courtney, but in hindsight I see that he’s drawn to that level of darkness. »

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C’est incroyable, quand même.

Tout ceci m’aide
à très rapidement
résoudre mes conflits
internes, mes culpabilités
face à ce type de personnalités
dans ma vie.

J’ai fait le ménage.
Ils ne sont pas fantômes.

Je ne les pleure pas.

Mais les séquelles, c’est indéniable
elles sont bien là.

Les clés sont si importantes
et insoupçonnées, prennent des formes
jusque-là inimaginées:

voilà pourquoi
il faut consacrer à l’énigme
du temps

chaque fois
je comprends mieux.

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